So I had a big non-scale victory today! I went grocery shopping for the week, and walking through the store I didn't feel "Bigger", for the first time in my life I felt like a normal, slightly overweight mom, just out getting food for my family. I can't tell you how amazing that felt, like I didn't stick out in the crowd, like no one was starting at me and judging me. It felt so nice to just be there, like any other normal person would be.
I realize the shift in my thinking because the last time I weight around 187-188 lbs, which is where I am right now, I felt huge. I felt out of place, lost and I felt like everyone noticed me. It is such a nice feeling to just feel like I blend in, when for so long I felt like the attention was always on me for the wrong reasons. I didn't have anything to prove today, I didn't need anyone to validate me, I wasn't afraid of being an outcast in a world full of beautiful people...I just felt like one of the crowd. What a concept...
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